I am not sure if you guys have noticed this or not, but on Fridays we usually try to take some time to either talk about something fun or to share little things about ourselves. A friend of ours mentioned to me after this post that she thinks readers enjoy finding out little personal things about us. So occasionally we try to do that. But not too much. We do realize how super boring we are. A few weeks ago, Colleen posted about how being such a perfectionist has impacted her ability to enjoy life. Today, I thought I would take some time to discuss one (of many) of my pathologies. I am a complete and total worry wart. I worry about nearly everything. And when I say worry, I mean obsess. I think about what I did, what I should have done, what I didn’t do, what I should have said, how it impacted the person I did it or said it to, how it impacted any person that was around, what they must be thinking, what their grandmother must be thinking, how I wasn’t really representing myself well, and how I could have represented myself better. It is exhausting. During many parts of most days, I feel so much anxiety about something that it can make my breath feel restricted. I believe this is most likely called an anxiety attack. I think the problem is that I care way too much. Recently I have experienced a few scenarios that did not quite go the way I would have wanted them to. So I have been left to wonder if I could have done things differently or better. If I did or said enough or maybe too much. And that, my friends, has been very tough for me. I have been trying very hard to remember that all I can do is the best that I can and then I have to leave the rest up to the universe. And to try the very best I can to let it go and quit worrying. I suppose this post is my way of reminding myself of that and hopefully at some point it will stick. I saw this quote on Pinterest and it actually helped me feel a little better. Good old Pinterest.
You know what, I really believe this is true. When I look back at all of the things I have dwelled on and tossed and turned over in the past, I realize that they mostly turned out just fine. Maybe not exactly how I expected them to or would have wanted them to at the time, but fine all the same.
Here is to hoping we all have a lovely weekend where we can relax and let things go!
Happy Friday ya’ll!